this is some shit.

My life is offically ruined.
well, not exactly. but i really hate myself right now.

FTW, FML.



I want nothing but you.

Do it like you do it to me. (;

IM SADDDDD. D;
but im really really really really really really really
really really really really really really really really
sick of being sad all the time.
so, i decide to either hold it in and be really happy.
or just let it all out. and apparently,
my mind chose itself to let it out today.
hmmm. i didnt mean to. but it just did.
and then i let out it ALL out like maybe 30 minutes
before 6.45pm. (school end) and yes, i stayed all the way.
my parents didnt come today. and i felt really sad.
seeing everyone with theirs. and me without mine. )':
it was really hurtful somehow.
i cried cause of two reasons today.
and today was the first time ever i cried in front
of a teacher. (besides 4 years old-9years old)
and the teacher was Cik Norliza.
i couldnt help it. she saw my eyes were red.
and obviously she ask.
and im the kinda of person that crys even more when you talk about it.
so yeah. i just burst out. ): didnt mean to. but it just did.



i miss bi.

My body hurts. ):

MT BODY HURTS! DDD;
maybe cause of the way i slept.
but my left leg.
i have no idea way, it suddenly
went pain when i walk or stretch it.
its like a vein keeps getting pulled.
the whole way down.
gahhhh.
anyways, bi. now you really know
how i feel. and i hope i can trust you
fixing it. and not making it worse.
-updates soon-



never again i wanna go through that.

Do you hate me?

i missed merentas desa this year.
feel kinda bad. ):

anyways, im fine with my sister already. (:

but sadly, i didnt hear from my boyfriend at all.
D:
hmm. wonder whats he's doing now.
did his mum let him go futsal?
if she did, i think he would be playing now.

moving on.
i wrote my first poem.
its kinda sad though.
but im really happy, i finally wrote one.
by my own myself! heeee.
(:
cause my sister's been writting her own
poems since she was like, 12?
SO, SHE HAS TONS.
*salutes her*
she's such a good writer.
hmm. ENVY MUCHH. ;DD

been going through chinese oldies.
i kinda like the oldies more than the current ones
somehow.
and the grown ups are kinda amazed that
i really know quite a number of REALLY OLD OLD ONES.
hahaha. well, thank you. (;




i miss you, ya know?

because i love you.

): my sister and i got into a fight.
she's not talking to me.
haih. im really sorry.


anyways, okay.
i did bad this term. )):
only 2 A's. DD:
shit man. and 1 C, which is 64
for bm. and i could have gotten a B.
but i sooo PANDAI, go shad ONE question wrongly.
AHYOOOO! haihhh.
better buck up for the last term man.
well, school fine.
what else?
shannon?
uhh. the usual. i guess.
i do miss him.
wonder if he misses me too?
Ive been really sad and upset lately.
alot of things are going through my mind.
its like for example, shannon.
i cant talk talk to him anymore.
since he doesnt have his phone.
its like i only get to talk to him
before school, recess and after school.
and that totals up to an hour plus.
thats definitely not enough.
Im trying to work it out though.
hopefully, we can make it through.
hmmm. well, but i kinda doubt he sees it
the way i do.


anyways, to my readers.
well, no more musshhyy stuff.
kay? i'll keep it to myself.
haih.





fimiliarity breeds contempt?

hit. drop. and. roll.

School's back.
Exams results taken back.
i did worse then the first term.
haih. im such a failure. );
disappointment comes again.
anyways.
to the people that think im blog's
like having too much love?
i mean i know its musshyy and all.
but thats just how i roll. ;P
i really love this dude. so, obviously
i blog like that? hahaha. blekhh.



I'm head over heels for you.

wooden block-ish thingy? ;DD

I'm on a call with my bi now. (:
i miss him ssoooo much.
didnt see him for more than week already.
):
Im watching KICK ASS now, by the way.
updates soon.
ciaos.