SOFTBALL. :D

Today, went to a park near shaun's house
to play softball.
it was fun! i finally can bat!
haha. i'm a newbie, so yeahh.
it was shaun, shannon, me, ben, ian wong,
my sister and kok weng. my brother - not really counted.
got really DIRTY! as in, in MUD.
but it was worthed. :DD
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my "A" is coming around at the moment.
(:

You're my one love. ♥

Justin Bieber is HOT!
No doubt about that!
but still sometimes he sounds like a girl.
:/
hahahah.
He's 16 this year.
birthday; 1st March.



He sang the song "One Time"
awesome song.
gonna be my favourite soon.
:DD
music video:http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CHVhwcOg6y8

You're my one love,
my one heart,
my one life, for sure.

I've got chores!

well, my maid has taken 2 weeks of lief because her daugther
is getting married at the age of 17.
not really a shocker there. i've known younger ones.
anywho, now, i have chores.
i have to make fruit juice for my parents very morning.
-.-
yes, they drink it everyday.
i have to wash dishes.
and wash school shoes.
mop the floor?
ironing?
the others my sister.
my brother?
i dont know.
and well, try not to think about it.
cause i wouldnt feel nice. when me and my sister
does everything. and all he do is boss my mum around, indirectly.
wtf right?
well, ya. and yes, he is twelve.
and he needs my mum to "pack" his bag when he goes to a party after school.
-.-
thursday and friday was the most awesomest day so far.
loads of fun.
thanks to many people.

got other problems of mine.
the usual.
but well, i better not get use to it,
thats for sure.

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well, i miss you, i really wanna talk to you.
its like we are growing more apart then ever.
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im sorry when i gave a face that you dont like.
i didnt mean to. and you can trust me, no doubt.
(:
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now, i have a feeling my "A" was a lie.
:/
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temptations.

im tempted for some stuff.
alot of things. and everyone too.
what am i tempted for, you ask?
well, its personal. :9
hows school?
hmm. fun, boring, awesome! :D
lol. depends la.
i dont have "my full answers" yet!
but but, i know i have an "A". (:
but is it a 80% or a 100%??
well, i have to wait AGAIN.
hahaa. but its kinda fun.
at least theres something to daydream
about in boring times. (:
i daydream alot now days.
haha.
anyways, form 2 life, not bad.
get to be a senior and boss those juniors. :P
haha. like in netball, unggul.
been really active in koko.
well, i better get ready now.
transporter comes at 1.20.
got to go now.
buhbyeee. (:

bo-ring!

goddamnit.
school's getting boring.
but some parts fun.
the hurt is still there.
why dont something happen??
im getting impatient.
and i dont like waiting.
lalalala.
dont like hearing or seeing some stuff.
but well, not in a position where i can have these feelings.
hmm.
been very busy lately.
i have some answers but its like half.
like having your english paper.
you have paper 1, the marks.
but you dont have paper 2.
and maybe you get a B. :O
or a A. (: so, yeah. i hate it.
the feeling is so GAHHH.
get what im saying?
I WANT MY FULL "MARKS".
my full answers.

-Joey. 22/1/10.

COMES AGAIN.

the sadness begins and the crying starts.
im feeling left out. its like i cant be there for you anymore.
its hurts. i dont wanna lose you but the worse thing is
i do feel that way. i miss you very much. and im glad you notice it too. i was afraid that you didnt and you know, other friends has replaced me.we dont have the time to talk anymore. we dont have the time for ourselves. its always in the public now. and thats where i cant tell you my problems, secrets. i really miss talking to you. and i dont want things to change. i want it back the way it was suppose to be. i know not everything goes my way. but cant i at least have this once?

hating it.

i hate it when i get really wooped up about stuff that im not suppose to.
but im that way because it seems that thats the situation. but actually not.
i hate it when i get hurt when im not suppose to.
sometimes, i want people to know that im hurt. and sad.
but some people just dont realize and sometimes i cant just tell the person
that im hurt. it wouldnt be right.
why am i feeling this way when im actually not in a position where i can?
it seems like i am but no. and sometimes, i just cant help it.
it really sucks. i get emotinal. i cry. i start thinking and wondering.
how long must i be in this stage cause i dont think i can stay any longer.
is it a sign that i must wait? be more patient? or to move on?
its really hard for me to figure out. and the worse part is that.
when im hurt, angry. i cant show it. cause to other people,
im just over reacting for no reason. but there is a reason.
but to me, a very stupid reason. i try many times to forget about
that fcking reason. and just act normal, act as if im feeling fine.
when do i actually will find the answer and go one more step ahead of this?
im waiting and waiting. but nothing ever comes. and whenever i think of moving on,
i cant. cause somehow, i dont want to. and thats pretty much the whole problem.


-Joey. 16/1/10.

First Sunday since school started.

This week was really slow!
ohk oh.
thats a bad sign.
:/
hopefully, i will have a better time
the following weeks.
Today's Sunday. and i have alot of homework.
woopyy. bluekk.
I need a freaking brown long book.
and the thing is, OUT OF STOCK! goddamnit.
I need it for geo. and why must Pn. Zana choose
the brown one? cant she use the green one?
School's alright,
but the fact of me not going online often.
its just saddening.
Teck Hong's birthday's tomorrow.
and i dont have his present.
I am really sorry and i feel really bad.
I also really sad cause Aiman is not going
to the same transporter as me anymore. ):
and alot of stuff has been going through my head.
in and out goes my thoughts.
hmmm. and sometimes, thoughts are suppose
to be expressed out. but some are just suppose
to remain unexpressed and stay in.
I just want to clear my mind sometimes, you know.
but its hard for me to do that.
because i guess those thoughts are important?
and thoughts could be anything.
problems, feelings, stress.
I mean sometimes when i say im fine.
im not. im actually really hurt. and i try to
forget about it for the best.
and this is not about my mum.
its about everything.
even the littleist things.
i know, im really sensetive.
maybe even for a girl?
but sometimes i dont think that.
its just that. im a human being and we
are suppose to have feelings.
Is it that bad to be sensetive?
for me no. for me, its not bad for the people around me.
but its sometimes bad for me, myself.
and i know some of you think im "pms-ing"
but not exactly actually.
maybe sometimes i am but helloo.
not all the time. maybe cause i just dont like whatever
that is happening.
and i raise my voice. its natural, normal.
so, think before you say, will ya?


-Joey. 10/1/10.

2 Cengal! :D 2010.

woah, i didnt blog for some time.
well, 2 cengal is quite good.
a fun class. (:
Fcking alot of homework.
goddamnit.
gahhhhh.
BM especially.
miss 1 cengal, the teachers and the friends.
sad la.
but well, hopefully everything will turn good in like a couple of months?
nahh, cant wait that long.
maybe, a few weeks?
and being form 2 kinda rocks.
more respect and can push form 1s around.
:9

New Years.

Its 2010. god. thats fast.
had a great time at kok weng's party.
thanks. to him and my sister.
and also the people that went that made it fun
and enjoying. (:
school starts in another 3 days.
wooo.
cant wait?
haha.
but its really interesting to me
to like find out whats gonna happen next year.
awesome.
:DD