Im sooooo tired! O:

Yesterday went to Rokaro;
Some pub/restoran thing with my family.
Count downed there.
Left around 1-ish then went eat supper.
Reached home, 2.30-ishh.

Woke up; 9.
SUPER TIRED.
Then went OU with siblings and Kok Weng.
Watched Phua Chu Kang.
Not what I expected. ):
In a bad way.
Then came back around 5.

SUPER DUPER TIRED! D:

Oh God.
And I got alot of homework. D:
Needa wake up early tomorrow
to do homework.
GAHHH.

Anywaysss, I cant wait for the holidays!
Haihhh. Can finally relax? :D



Im so getting over you. (:

It happened finally?

HI PEOPLE. (:
Its Saturday, boring as hell.
Very boring laaaa.
Just kill me nowwwww.
No one to talk to.
Nothing to do.
In my mum's place.
ESH.

And Im finally at the place where the sunset is perfect.
BUT I didnt bring my camera! FML.
I always wanted the perfect sunset
but my house was never the place to get it.
GAH. Its soooo prettyyyyy!
Cant stop staring and regrettingggg!
Eyeeerrrrr.

Well, Im holding up pretty alright.
Still think of him from time to time.
hmmm. :/


I lost weight. O:
And i thought I gained!
phewww. :D

OH OH.
My power went down again! :DD
Its 50;50 noww.
I still have to make a pair cause I sit
at the back now and its kinda hard to see
with my vision eventhough its only 50.
hmm. So, I'll have back up vision when I cant see!
Cool, eyy? (Y).



I feel kinda empty.

NOOO.

I always have an urge to care about him.
IM SO USE TO IT.
Im so use to caring for him.
Knowing what is he doing.
Making sure he's okay.
GAH. I feel so bored. and lonely right now.
I have no one. ):

I miss his company,
his presence.
I mean like he's still here.
but its different, ya know?


Anywaysss, I wanna get the ukulele asap.
So I have something to get my mind off him.
:DD especially for the holidays.
dadadadadadadadda.



Where are all the notes?

I've been better.

The nightmare's over.
But the dream's gone too.



Well, I rather to search for a new dream
than stay in a nightmare thats been haunting me.
Well, maybe not exactly a nightmare.
:D

But I guess, I'll feel better after awhile.
Anddd I'll find someone better too! (:


Its gonna take awhile for me to get use to
some of the things. hmmm.
Keep feeling theres something missing.
:/ bbuuuttt,
I'll get over it, right? (:


Yes, Im just trying to make myself feel better.
heh. :D

And I have to admit, I am gonna miss the mushy things too.
hahah. Maybe cause I am those kinda people that like mushy things.
;DDD

God, heal me as fast, kay? :D
Please and thank you.

Im actually taking this heartbreak quite well.
Its my first, ya know?
hahha. Some ask why am I still smiling.
Well, I have to just make the best outta it, right?
:DD So, happy and smiley, I'll be. (:


I know youre very happy.
And I mean VERY happy.
hmmm. Well, Im happy that youre happy. (:



Move along. Im forgetting you. (:

Im done.

Its not that I wanted it to end.
I just wanted the best for us.
And also for the pain to stop.
Cause I finally give up on fixing this.
I know it wont be the same anymore.
Well, I can tell you wanted it to end too.
I hope youre happy then.
All the best in life.
But, still friends, right?



I'll be alright.

SHADOWS OF US

i used to have a ton to say to you or about you
but now a days, i cant seem to find anything to say.
i miss the way things used to be
all you do is misuse and abuse the privileges i given you
trust, promises, vows.
means nothing to me anymore.
i don't hope for the better in you anymore
i give up.
I'm just waiting for the day.

the day it will all be over.

Chanel Chin 08:22

BITCHY.

Esh. Stop being so bitchy la.


Anywayss,
My throat is not getting better.
My nose either.
Im lack of sleep.
My eye lids are really heavy
yet dont feel like sleeping.

I miss him so darn much.
Wonder if he misses me too. :/
I get to see him tomorrow right?
Sundays are officially the worse.
He'll be too busy.
I use to be busy too on Sundays.
But my parents are busy on Sundays
cause of work.
So Im stuck at home.

Meanwhile,
Im craving for bubble tea.
I WANT THE JELLY. D:
And I mean, ONLY the jelly.
I like it lots.
heh. (:

I HATE HAVING SORE THORAT.
BLOODY HELL.
I WILL HAVE A TERRIBLE TIME SLEEPING.
Must I really suffer that bad? ):




Seriously stop it.

I just wanna die.

Bloody hell.
My brother had fever.
and then when he recovers, I got it.
And my sister too.

Its like always like that,
one of us gets it, the others will too.

ESH. I had fever yesterday morning,
midnight-ish. Then I woke up.
I felt better.
So, I went to school. THEN,
I JUST WANTED TO DIE.
I had fever again during school.

My parents came back from China yesterday.
Bought stuffs for me. (:
A CAMERA BAG. YAY. :D
and other stuffs too. :D

Let's see;
Gosh, my throat aint getting better,
my nose is really annoying
and I somehow feel kinda dizzy.
SUPER SUFFERING. ):

Hopefully I wont lose my voice.
Im like really hungry noww.
But I dont have the appetite to eat.
):
MY THROAT IS KILLING ME.


I miss you so much.

I'll say it again. IM IN LOVE. (:

BOO! HELLOO WORLD.
:D Its me, Joey?

Anywhoo,
School, boring la.
Bi, doing finee.
Homework, More till you can drown in them.
Life, the usual.

Mosquitoes, GO AWAY! D:
Very itchy. Someone save me!

SOOOOOOOOO?
OH RIGHT.
Im alil addicted to the song; Just the way you are-BrunoMars.
Awesome song. (:
Its so niceeeeee.
AND SWEET. ♥ awww.

Moving on,
parents coming back on Friday, another two more days!
SO FAST. O:
hahha. Then wont be going online at night no longer.
awww man.

SHOWSTOPPER! Awesomely awesome song man!
Search in youtube. Showstopper by AJ Rafeal.
He's a youtube singer kinda thing, ya know?

Ciao. (:



Boy, you're amazing. Just the way you are. ♥

Bloody hell.

I'll try my best.
I'll just smile and shut up.
okay? (:

And hey,
Im not expecting too much from you.
Im just expecting you to be MY BOYFRIEND?
I just expect you to do what boyfriends do?
Esh, is that too much?




I'll tolerate.

bad?

Shisha aint that nicee. eeee.
well, maybe cause of the flavour.
Whateverrr. me not so like it.

anywayssss,
I AM NOT A SMOKER.
ESH.
I just wanted to try something new.
Like a one time thing.
To gain experinces in my life.
So wrong?

And its not exactly smoking anyways.
Its not a cigarette. -.-

You guys make me feel as if,
like im such a bad person.
But my intentions are all good.
esh.



Gosh, its not a big deal.

oh my gosshh.

I bought a PINK phone for my boyfriend. :DDD
hahaha. I wanted to punish him cause he had to
live with it one way or another.

BUT then, I fell in love with it after awhile.
come onnnnn, ITS PINK. ;D
and then and then, My sister bedazzled it!
So its all diamondy and rhinestoney. :DDDDD

And so, Im gonna loan him my black phone instead.
;P well, still. I was thoughtful enough. and caring.
Cause i did actually bought him a phone.
but then changed of plans alil. ;DD
Bi, yes i know, you love me. (:

Parents are in China already.
awww. going to miss them.
and they are coming back on Fridayy.
Alil freedom though.
;DD

Homework, yes, Im coming! ESH.
Byee!



See, I do love you. (:

The days are loooooooonnggg GONE.

I miss the past. ALOT.
The good times. Not really the bad ones.
I miss the times where everything was perfect.
But sad to say those days are looonng goneeee.

Its like when you like that moment,
it wouldnt stay just alil while more.
Instead at bad moments, it stays alil while
more than its suppose to.
RIGHT?

esh esh.
WEEEEEELL,
I went out today in the morning.
"I have a friendly match tomorrow
at Megah, mummy." ;DD
thats what i said yesterday.
But i went to Megah see my boyfriend
play. hahha. instead of me playing. :D
and also to hang out with him.
Its been awhile since that ever happened.

It was just a short period of time. ):
I havent had enough of you worrrrr.
DD:

He's always busy nowadays.
No idea why.
What, he's starting maple now?
-.- bloody hell.
WHATEVER. dont want to care.
well, not exactly.
Its just that, its better that i dont.

MOVING ONN,
Parents going China tomorrow.
for like 3 to 4 days?
hahha. well yeah.
The not so awesome part,
My grandmum's here.
OH WELL. (:

anywayssss,
I HAVE LIKE 4 KOMSAS THINGYS TO DO.
_l_ bloody eff.
homework, never liked them.

Im off. Ciao.


Will you promise?

Strong?

Happy 5th Month Anniversary, bi. (:

Im sorry for all the retarded things i did.
Woops. ;9
Please forgive me.
I love you so darn much. :D

愛してる. ♥


I will forever love you.

I screwed it. ):

So, the score was 2-1. SO CLOSE.
I scored and then one of them scored.
it was 1-1 and then penalties! ARGH.
I CANT BELIEVE I EFFING TIANG THE FREAKING PENALTY.
DDDD;<
So, Junaizah, the ex MSSD player scored.
Congrats, Gol & Gincu.
You guys are great. (:

I didnt do my best.
GAHH. ):
I really hate myself right now.
Maybe futsal just isnt my thing?
Is it? Or i might be better?
But definitely, it will take alot more practice.
which I dont exactly have the time.
Maybe I should just stick to games the involves
hands instead of feet? Or BOTH? (:

Congrats to Spartans!
You guys are just awesome. :D

Triple Threats;
Second best in the tournament.
Not bad right? For first timers somemore.
(:

This experince was worthed.
I got to face victory.
I got to score 5 goals in this tournament.
I got to face challenges with other teams.
I got to actually play futsal, is it that nice, boys? :9
I got to try something new in my life.
And last but not least,
I got to face defenat.

Going throught defeat, I got to learn my mistake.

P.s' I realize Im damn ganas when I play. hahahh. ;D
Shouting so loud all the time.

I want us to make it through.

FUTSAL. (:

Well, WE WON! WOOOH.
GO TRIPLE THREATS. (:

4-0. awesome. (:
No penalties.

To Stormbeaker,
You were good too.
You played rough! hahha.
made me fall like alot of times.
but well, it is futsal. :D

My whole body aches! ):
Maybe there's training tomorrow?
hmmm.
Finals here we come. (:

Congrats to Gol & Gincu.
Maybe see you at finals? ;D
hahah.
Stormware and G&G are good teams.
Im really nervous!



Wish me luck?

Futsal training? ;D

Okay. Sooooo, Im at Caryl's.
with Idayu. The others couldnt make it. ))):
Hui June's sick! NOOO! Get well soon ya. (:
Its like the third/fourth training?
I missed the first one. D:

anywayssss, Im excited for the match but VERY NERVOUS & WORRIED.
gahhh. Well, good luck for the other teamss. May the best win. (:

GO TRIPLE THREATS. :D

Well, as you all know, Bi's team didnt win.
awww mann. :/ but its okayy. He's still a winner to me. (:
As i said, he still have me. <3>I'll be good. Promise.

Typical.

Wanna know my usual Saturdays I'd have?
Well, I would go to work. from morning till night.
Go online.
andddd. yeah, thats pretty much it.
OH wait. right, I wouldnt talk to him the whole day.
cause I never get to.

Usual Sundays?
Stay home. Go online.
Might get an offline message from him. MIGHT.
Go out for dinner.

Boring right?
Usual weekends, Overall.
Go online. Eat. Sleep. Never getting to talk to him.

Sad isnt it?
Yes, very sad, in fact.



Everything's changed.